untitled posts leave many wondering the subject

So I have way too much fun with the titles of my blog! Sorry I havent been very active. I have been busy.

Hmmm...I can say things here have gotten exciting. I have been able to grow yet closer to God. The realization of "why" I do and desire certain things has been very humbling. So if you're lost, I will recap. I am a Musician. I enjoy being on stage, in fact when I worship, there are times I wish I just had my guitar with me, because its how I would praise Him...through my guitar. And I wanted to play on stage. REALLY BADLY! We had a Band Fusion at the class. This is where we throw in different musicians at one time and play songs, then change out some position switch new instruments. Pretty cool. Well the first time we had it, I almost got to play. I had to go back to work right as I was about to play. Total sinker! Like "You sunk my battleship!" sinker. As I was walking back to work, I asked God why I couldn't play. That I wanted to play. Then he subtly asked, "why". When God asks why, most likely it means your motives are wrong. My case: Im always wrong when He asks why.

Well, regardless to say...I discovered why. And God kept working that aspect of me. He wants me to be a worshipper, not some performer. It's like what makes a Rock-Star a rock star. Is it the fact they play guitar and look cool, or is it that and they act, live, breathe the fact of being a Rock-Star. In fact to them, they never become a Rock-Star, they just do. They do it, not think about how to do it. CONNECTION! Im a Worshipper. I not only need to live, breathe, and sleep worship for God, but I need to do it. And do it through awe and love for Him, not because I am asked to. Do you like someone giving you "forced" approval? Or "forced" love? Why is God any different?

Ok, now that thats done...Work. We wont go there. Work stays at work.

I miss a lot of people back home. you guys are on my heart! And I pray you all go on an adventure of your own with God!

SOW today was intense!!! It was about what we, as worshippers, need to be and realize. Very good. Halfway through it, me and a buddy of mine had inspiration moments...so we wrote some intense songs. Songs about deliverence, remembrance, and thankfulness. Im pumped to get music to them.